2009

I'm now three weeks since the knee replacement. I'm recovering, but it's still very painful. Therapy is killer. Yet, it was the first thing on my list for the new year to get done. My health will become my priority this year. I will lose weight and exercise. I'll grow stronger day by day. This is an area that I have total controll over. There's so many things going on that I have no control over. But my thought life and the way I spend time is up to me.

Right now I'm grounded. I cannot drive and am limited in what I can do, since I must use a walker when I walk. So, it's a good time to take stock of myself, come up with a plan, study and decide what I'm going to do this year to change my life and make a difference. I don't have one egg is the Obama basket. He cannot create change for me. Stress perhaps, but not change.
I've allowed myself to become fearful, depressed at times and at times full of anxiety. I need to corral my thoughts and emotions. I need to focus a bit more on the positive things in life.

I want to continue in my spiritual journey with God. I need to grow in faith. I've allowed fear to crowd it out little by little. So, I commit to taking time in the Word, to renew my mind and to trust the Lord. I hope to attend church more this year. I love to worship and praise God in the congregation. So many people are asking for prayer. I will try to remember all the requests that come my way and focus on them each individually each day when I'm resting in the Lord and the Word. I will call out their names before the God of the Universe.

I'm working on a few new friendships. I'm not engaging in some of my old ones, since they are draining now days. I have my own problems. I tend to think of myself as the Savior at times and really, I know I'm not. I'll let God be God, and I'll just be me, who is limited in the kind of help I have to offer.

I plan to clean up and sort out the basement. I really need to get rid of things and downsize a bit. There's so much down there. I really'd like to finish off at least 2 bedrooms and a bathroom down there. God will make a way.

I have lots of other little projects to do, like organizing my music, cleaning up my computer, etc...but I intend to take time out and work on my doll house. That'll be a fun thing for me.

I want to spend time with Leah and Susie, loving on them and teaching them all things that Grandma's should teach.

So, that's my desires for the new year. I hope that I'll be true to myself and get some things done. Happy New Year to all.